Ekis

*sad music rolls*

So I’ve been talking to this guy lately. We have a lot of fun together and definitely seem to click. At nag-uupdate kami sa isa’t isa. Okay naman ang lahat hanggang sa nalason yung utak ko. I conclude na we’re just heading blindly for a dead end that will leave me even more hurt. Sarili ‘ko lang. Sarili ‘ko lang yung naisip ‘ko. Ang problema kasi sakin, sobrang hirap magtiwala. Lahat ng dadating sa buhay ‘ko, inaasahan ‘ko lang na gagaguhin ako. The uncertainty is killing me. Confused pa ‘ko eh. He calls me everyday and he wants to see me during most of his spare time, so ano ‘to diba? I admit, gusto ‘ko ‘to kasi I feel special na maiisip mo na lang na “wow ang importante ko naman kasi hindi niya ko nakakalimutan kausapin.” I was so desperate that time to gain a lot of friends kaya naman ginrab ‘ko na yung opportunity na maging ka-close siya.

He gave up on me. ‘Yun ang dinadrama ‘ko dito. Totoo pala na, you’ll know the value of someone when they leave you. Holy shit, it hits me. Yung kaibigan ‘ko na sinabihan ‘ko ng lahat sa’kin at tinanggap ako ng buo ay itinaboy ‘ko lamang. Hoy ang sakit pala ma-ignore. Lalo pa ng taong mula umaga hanggang madaling araw mo kausap pero ngayon ni hindi manlang viniview yung story mo sa messenger at instagram. Maliit na bagay pero sobrang sakit.

 

Sabi nga nung sa blog na nabasa ko,

Walk away and don’t look back.

If he follows, you’ll know you’ll have yourself a friend who values you and will follow you to the end of the Earth.

If he doesn’t, then he’s not all that serious about keeping you in his life.

 

I’ll stick to that.

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Ano na?!

Minsan ba naiisip niyo rin kung ano nga ba purpose niyo dito sa mundo? Yeah. In my 20 years here on Earth, (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ulol) hindi ko pa rin alam kung saan ba ako papunta, hindi ko pa rin alam kung ano balak ko sa buhay at kahit ni gagoals wala ako. Paano ba? ‘Di ko nga rin alam kung anong purpose ng sinusulat ko dito. (HAHAHAHAHAHA TANGINA KO TALAGA)

Masyado na akong toxic. Masyado nang makitid yung pag uutak ko para isipin ‘tong mga ‘to. Like wtf ang dami kong kaibigan, ang daming tao sa paligid ko, ang daming anjan para kausapin ko pero eto ako ngayon nagbblog. (Ang gago diba? HAHAHAHAHAHA) Ginagawang kumplikado lahat ng bagay. Anyways, gusto ko lang talaga maglabas ng sama ng loob dito. Hahaha! Pagbigyan!

So ayon mga kaibigan, may ikwekwento ako sainyo ’bout sa kagagahan ko.

May nakilala akong guy. Mabait at masayahing tao. At dahil desperada ako sa kaibigan, go lang ng go ang ate niyo. Hanggang sa medyo nagpaparamdam na siya ng mga sintomas na alam niyo na. (Sana hindi niya to mabasa. Lol) Kung sa babae, okay na. Magugustuhan mo talaga siya. Pero hindi ako babae. (Charot!) I mean, hindi ko to deserve kasi gago ako. Hindi ako nagseseryoso sa buhay. Hindi ako karapatdapat mahalin. (HAHAHAHAHAHA ang drama pero uy seryoso yan) Kaya ako eto ngayon confused. Hindi ko alam kung ano gagawin ko. Ang manhid ko na. Ganito ata talaga pag nasaktan ng sobra. Tangina kase eh dapat hindi na pinagtatagpo kung hindi naman nakatadhana. Oo alam ko lesson yan pero hoy! Iba kasi sa pakiramdam yung magago. Tignan niyo epekto. Tangina niyo kase eh. (Joke graduate na ko jan. Di na ko galit.)

12am thoughts lang to. Ako’y sadyang ginaganahan lamang ngayon. So ayun, kung sino man makabasa neto tara usap. Gusto ko ng advise mula sa expert, sa gago, sa kaibigan, sa adik, sa aso, sa baboy o kahit anong uri ka pa ng hayop, kay jollibee, sa mga healthy ang buhay jan, sa mga nagmamahal, sa mga hindi magmamahal, kay santa claus, kay princess sarah, sa patatas (Puro na ko kagaguhan kaya titigilan ko na to.)

 

Iyun lamang po mga kaibigan. Lagi lang po nating tatandaan na tayong mga gago, bawal tayo maattach. Okay?images (3) Power! Peace! Kirrrk!

 

Three-person Friendship

Have you ever found it difficult to make friends? Do you even know what qualities you should look for when picking your friends?

As a college student, it is difficult to make time for friends and it is harder to find the time to form those deep friendships. Many of us have friends in our lives over the years but as we grow older, we lose contact to some of them. Other friends may be stay in touch with us but slowly we lose touch because of busy schedules. But then there is that last group of friends that the bonds run so deep and we call them true friends- when they come in to your life, cherish it!

During my college- challenging part of my life- there were individuals that I consider my truest of friends. They were the one who saw me through best and tough times. They picked me up when I was down and they stood by me when I felt alone. They loved me without judgment and expectations. These true friends were always there for me; not always in person but always in heart. True friends help us grow and change for the better. They support us in good times or in bad times.

But what about if you have two best friends? Having two best friends will always be better than having just one but having two best friends can be a lot more complicated than dealing with just one. 

These are few disadvantages and advantages of having a two BFFs:

  1. Two is always better than one. You have two supporters even one of you always ends up feeling left out.
  2. It’s bad when you hear they went somewhere without you which leaves you wondering what the two of them say about you.
  3. Any text is now a group text. 
  4. You always have someone to stay in with and you always have someone to go out with. There’s always someone available for everything.
  5. You have a second opinion when you don’t like the first one and an argument will always have two sides for you to choose from.
  6. You always end up having to tell the story twice.
  7. When you go out, everything is cheaper because you share.

Two people is a friendship. Three is a family. True friends secure a place in your heart forever. A strong friendship doesn’t need daily conversation, doesn’t always need togetherness as long as the relationship lives in the heart, true friends will mever be part.

“A true friend is the greatest of all blessings.”

Unhealthy Relationship

All relationships have ups and downs. You should not rely on those magical fairytale lovestories because you must believe in the unique power of your relationship. If you find yourself in a relationship that is weak, don’t ever give up.

A relationship takes time. Don’t expect that you will always be happy. Sometimes you will feel frustrated and just say to yourself that you just wanted to quit or you just wanted to leave your partner. Nowadays, we think that people are like clothes; quick and easy to change. You will dump your partner and find someone else that you think is better than her/him. Remember that your partner is not a toy that you will leave if it is broken or if your parents brought you a new one.

Your partner was placed in your life for a reason. If it doesn’t workout, it also has a reason. Every experience has a learning. Don’t expect a partner that has a perfect package because you will ended up being disappointed throughout your relationships. Don’t be a silly to rely on everything you saw on a facebook post or any social media. Every person has its own uniqueness. You must learn how to love your partner’s uniqueness and be used to it.

You should remember these things:

  • Be open to your partner. Be honest; even you did something bad, you should confess it to him/her.
  • Always listen to your partner. It is the first step in communicating and communicating is a way to save your relationship.
  • Do something you’ve never tried before.
  • Don’t listen to other’s opinions about you and your partner. Don’t let other people ruin your relationship. It is not about them, it is about you and your partner. They are out.
  • Forgive each other. Forgiving is very hard because it is hard to forget. Remind yourself that whatever happened, happened.
  • Be fair. Tell your partner what would you like them to do or not do and accept what your partner wants too. Always remember the Golden Rule!

    If it is broken, fix it. Be responsible, be respectful, have patience and be loyal. 🙂